Judgmental

A lot has been going on for the last couple of months. Family, school. Well 'obstacles' pretty much sums the title of this month. You never know how evil, well no, I mean, like, unkind? when they are having problems.

You know I don't really believe when people say someone is two-faced.

Because they use it under the same circumstances. 

1) That particular person is kind to you but on the other hand talks behind your back/gossips about you. 

2) That particular person is faking it. Or simply just, fake.

Let me give you another example, irrelevant, but TOTALLY RELATED.

Situation : Amy's grandmother passed away, she is very sad, but she tries to keep it to herself. So Amy goes to school acting all normal like any other day, gossiping with her friends, laughing, having fun. Then suddenly she just lost it. She started crying so bad.

Reason : She was happy, normal as usual, but then she suddenly cries because she can't fake it anymore.

Problem : People thinks she's two-faced because she was fine at first, so everyone take it as it was because Amy was seeking for attention so she suddenly cries and start telling stories about how she misses her grandmother.

Maybe it wasn't a really good example but seriously it's a damn good example ok.

It's like, 

at first you are friendly but then when you just don't feel like showing, you are two-faced.

Lol seriously bitches calm yo freakin restless minds.

EVERYBODY, I REPEAT, everyfuckingbody, is two-faced.

I can be happy now, I can be sad later. You don't need everyone to like you, understand you.

People always want other people to be in their shoes, so they can know what it feels like to be them.

So to the people who says that, have you tried being in other people's shoes before saying you want other people to be in your shoes? Which part of everybody has their own problems don't you understand?

Maybe after trying to be in another person's shoes you will feel better about yourself because you don't have to face their problems, and vice versa. Not everyone takes the same pain, accept the same problems. For example, you can like a guy with tattoos, well maybe other girls can't. Compare yourself with others all you want, I can't say anything about that because I do that myself too. But don't compare your problems with other people's problems. We handle things differently, our way of thinking is different.

Urgh. Actually what I wanna say is, DON'T JUDGE PEOPLE.

You don't like it when people criticize you, so you go and criticize other weaker people la is it?

Or, you can accept what other people think about you, you can ignore it, so you think everyone is as strong as you la is it? I get so mad when I know people like that.

Because everyone is 'judgey'. They judge as soon as they see a person.

And the truth is I think people judge people the most when they did something wrong, or when they're weak.

When you gave a first impression that you are strong, they expect you to be some serious strong lad. You know? But then when you show your vulnerable side, THE WHOLE THING CHANGES.

Sigh, I don't know how to explain how I feel. Sometimes I hate the human race, because we are created too smart. And we get outsmarted but ourselves. But on the other hand I love the human race. And in many ways I'm sure any human would understand.

OKAYYYYYYY, lol well anyway, having spm now and it ends at the 7th. Busy month la December :(

Ends at 7th, return books at 8th, Relative's wedding dinner at 10th, Alyssa's birthday on 12th, class trip on 14th-16th and I bet there's after-plan since it's just two nights, prom on 19th, (in between reunion of EV 21?22?23?), 25th Christmas already. How am I gonna see bryan lol AND WORK??? Mom wants me to work immediately. Seriously. Whateverfuck did I do to get NS which is already a 3 months thingy and she wants me to work IMMEDIATELY??? Later cannot??? I no need rest one lor???? Urghhhhhhhhhh.

WHEN WILL BE THE TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I CAN MAKE A FUCKING DECISION FOR MYSELF??????????????????????? AND I AM SO INDECISIVE MY WHOLE LIFE WHY????? ALL BECAUSE I'M USELESS IS IT? BECAUSE almost EVERYTHING I HAVE TO LISTEN I DON'T EVEN GET TO MAKE A CHOICE.

And one of my biggest problems. I can never decide. What I wanna eat? What I wanna do? What I wanna STUDY? Omgggggg sometimes I also wish I'm not so useless can?

ok bye.